Saturday, February 23, 2008

Lent '08 - Day 16: What Happened Today?

I’m at the desk with a mile-high todo list, but I know I just need to take some time to rest and reflect given my day. I woke up, and due to an impending meeting, I bailed on my usual time to be quiet with God. Bad call. I quickly found myself being a jerk to Kara, too prideful to own up to my mistakes without contingencies. I learned more about the passing away of a family member, had a confrontational conversation with a construction worker, felt the weight of all the work to do in our backyard and basement, saw a disappointing last-home-game loss for the Huskies, got to play percussions with three skilled and enthusiastic guitar players for a church’s mission conference, received word from a friend that went missing in September who is now in jail, listened to a friend share about his wrestling’s with his career, his disbelief in the system he’s been apart of, and what his future holds. In days like these where I have been all over the place, I feel like there’s too much to really analyze and process within a manageable time period. I’m tired. Taking 15 minutes to stop and step out of task-mode is hard. It feels like I’m continuing a bread-first-search lifestyle, but sometimes that’s the best I can do.

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